chantel matiyous

I remember my first day at west everyone was like who the hell is this "white girl" and you and a few others was the only ones who came up to me talking to me and made me feel welcomed 7th grade was hard and the teachers even seemed to hold a grudge against me part of me wishes i would of listened to you when you told me who was to trust and who wasnt i just didnt know any better. she im riding for you everyday you ment alot to me even though we drifted away after 8th grade when i moved away i can NEVER forget you and all the memories at west. Like everyone braking out singing after we had music class and we had to watch high school musical and as soon as we had lunch everyone was acting a fool DJ, ERIC, VERNONICA, STEPH, TREY, and so much more. I miss you baby girl rest easy up there and save me a spot.  love jess

Hey SHy its Flo, jus so u kno, I am gonna be workin on a few things for u, u will not go in Vain, god took his angel n now im gonna make sure i listen to u everytime u get my ass outta bed like u did that morning in the hospital! Flo's ridin fo u fo real not on sum fake ass shit, ppl say they luv u when u die, or becom...e famous, but r they gonna really be there like they should? we will see together gurl!

Damn Shy, 16 months without you already and it still feels like yesterday to me.
After I saw you in the casket shit wasn't the same to me. My grandfather passed away a month before someone took your life away.
Don't get me wrong I miss my abuelo 100%. Hes my family I love and adore him and I know he watches over me to this day.
But you Shy..
April 25th 2009 is a day I will never forget. A piece of history I will always carry. We was close, we was friends.
That was a friendship I will never find again because you were one of a kind. Nobody can ever replace you.
People tell me to let you go.. truth is i wont. I can't let you go Shy.
I know God doesn't want us to hate anybody but it's hard for me not to hate the coward and worthless man who took you away from us.
Four months wasn't enough...
I'm mad that I can't spend at least one day with you..
Shy when I walked into Russell & Pica and saw you in that casket my heart istantly missed a heart beat.
You were such a beautiful girl, You ARE a beautiful young woman! God Blessed this Earth with an angel.
And on April 25th 2010 when we did your memorial walk was the first time I saw addison ave. Seein your mother burst into tears was hard.
No mother should have to burry their child.
Every now and then I visit your grave and visit you and like Nova says "It's amazing how we can feel the vibe, how Shy's here with us"
& I do belive that. I believe that your here with me everyday. At first I remember I saw you at night I cried the whole night and by sunrise I went
to my moms room crying and I told her I saw you and she told me to light a candle and pray for you. At first I was scared. But please feel free
to come and visit me Shy! I'd love to see you again! Now I just get signs that you were there with me at night.
I also wanted you to know that everything I do for you now is from the heart and I think that you need all the attention all the help all the love! Either
from me or someone esle it doesn't matter; all I want and all your family wants is for your case to be finally solved. So you can rest peacefully,
I love you Shy; always will.
Muahh r.i.p my forever young
xoxo
-Carol

Damn Shy, As the days go by and I see Steph hurt, It tears my heart up Babygirl, Just like She said no bullet can take out ShyShy from us, But I sit back and think, Why so early? Things were just getting better, I miss your smile your fatty cheeks..When I had to see you in the casket, My life turned around I'm a whole new Thomas now..But Its 12:O6 A.M. The world is sleeping and I'm up thinking of youu..Rest Easy ShyShy :'(

My favorite memory is the day we both were wandering the halls at the same time and met up; you kissed me and we hugged as you sayd you loved me. I told you I loved you back and that you look amazing in you orange shirt, jeans, and heels with your hair the same way as mine that day. We went into the bathroom and compared our faces to try nd see why people always said we were twins. We knew we resembled each other but we didnt get the twin part - but nevertheless we were both flattered that people sayd that. We parted ways as we went back to class and kissed again. I miss your hugs and kisses and how much strength you gave me. <3

baby.. 2-24-93 was the happiest day of my whole life. You came in to this world to complete me as a person, as your mother . 17 years we would of had together. My angel from the first day i saw your face. I miss you. Happy 17th birthday my angel .  love mommy

i remember this day clearly lol. we walked all over southside & i got in trouble lol so my mom decided to go talk to steph. i was supposed to be "grounded" but you got to come over anyways. we ate everything in sight at my house haha. i remember when we bought sunflower seeds & we we're spitting the outside my window hitting people. and they didnt know where it was coming from lol. shyshy we had too much fun together. til we meet again. love you crecre

The first time that i saw ur cute little face , i cryed i coundnt beleive that  god had sent me such a wounerful daughter like you shy . I watched u grow in to a beautiful young women with some much love in ur heart for people and animals. All the so called strays that u us to bring home.How a cat followed you from one side of town to the other ill never know. All the vet bills for theses animals and than when they where better how they would just dissapear. I recall all th fun times we had with each other and how we us to laugh and cry together. I miss my best friend and i miss my daughter so much mommy i hope  you hear me when i talk to you. I know that you ar still here with us and i wat for my time to see you again and love you and hold you and do our cheek squiss. love mommy